Learning to LOVE yourself...Flaws and All!

When I was a teenager I didn't wear any foundation...at all! I barely wore any makeup for that matter and never really cared much about looking good or trying to impress others. I even look back on old photos of myself and think, "Dang I was cute! What happened?" I sometime miss those days. The simpler days when all I had to do was wash my face, brush my teeth, throw on some deodorant and be out the door! Now I am completely obsessed with makeup!! I cannot go out of the house without concealer, foundation, eye liner, mascara and lip gloss. It's as if I need this mask to cover all my flaws before I feel comfortable enough to talk to anyone. Why are we so critical of ourselves and how we look? I think as we get older we start to feel more sensitive to others opinions rather than our own. I mean let's be honest if heels didn't look so good we wouldn't go threw the pain of wearing them. They say beauty is pain right? Wrong!!! Beauty is not pain. Have you ever seen someone that is barely wearing any make up, care free and happy?! I bet you have and I bet you remember them because they are few and far between. You probably were a bit envious of how they did not seem to care what other thought but still seemed happy. Those are people who have come to accept themselves for who there are! They don't care as much as most people about what others think or say. Makeup or no makeup we are all beautiful and stunning in our own way. You don't need to look perfect to feel good about who you are. Some times when you look to done up that can also look like your very self conscious of others and make you seem less appealing and not as attractive. Sometimes all you need is confidence. Your life is what you make it and everyday on this earth is precious so why waste your life worrying about things you can't change or trying to please someone you don't even know?! Your never going to please everyone!! Instead of trying to please others try pleasing yourself and finding what it is that makes you special. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and I must say that in my eye's beauty is reflected from the inside out...not the other way around!

Baby your a Firework

I want to start by saying that we are all beautiful and makeup just accentuates that beauty! We all have something amazing inside of us that God believed was worthy of life and living. When I was around 6 my parents divorced and my mom turned to drugs and alcohol. I don't think I really noticed how much the divorce had effected her until the day she forgot to pick me up from school! I was in the 1st grade and school got out around 1pm usually I would wait in the front for her to pick me up but this day was different. I waited and wait until the secretary closing the office came up to me and asked me where my parents were. I told her I didn't know so she took me home and called my dad to come pick me up. My dad was so upset that she would do such a thing and risk someone being able to kidnap me. I understand where he was coming from but what he didn't know was that my mom was not stable enough to raise me and my brother. She had become consumed by alcoholism and drug use that we just weren't important to her anymore! It's sad but now that I am older I can see things for what they really were and I've come to realize it weren't my dad's fault, it wasn't the alcohol's fault not even the drugs...it was her fault! For not being strong enough for her kids that needed her. She was so consumed in her own self pity that she didn't even realize that he is only a man! Yes he is my father so I think he is an amazing man but no man, woman or anything for that matter should keep you from taking care of your kids. As I got older I always told myself I would never be as weak as she was and that if a man decided to leave me with or without kids I would pick up the pieces and move on with my life. I thank God for showing me that you have to love yourself before anyone will ever really love you and to look inside yourself for strength because it's there...he put it there! We all have something amazing inside us that will guide us threw any darkness...we just need to believe in ourselves!!! So often we forget about that strength and focus on things that don't really matter like money, cars, cloths etc. when really you have everything you need inside yourself. Beauty will only get you so far because let's all face it were all going to be old one day and there's nothing you or anyone can do about that. What you can do is reach out to those who need you most, be there for the one's you love and always believe in yourself and your own abilities. You are a Firework...you are an amazing person put on this earth for a purpose and while your beauty may go away someday you will always be beautiful inside....and that's what really matter's!